The Last Day/Night

July 31st

Today it's official.  I'm being induced tomorrow morning at 7:30 am.  I still can't quite believe it.  At my appointment this week I was 4cm dilated and looked like my water could break at any moment.  I've also been having contractions on and off, but they never became regular.  My doctor said she thought the baby was ready and I was ready.  Since she didn't want me to go much past my due date if at all due to the gestational diabetes we decided to schedule an induction and see what happens.  After a bit of drama with the scheduling person (I think I made her mad . . . but call me when you say you're going to and I won't be that persistent caller) we finally got word today that they could get me in tomorrow because of a cancellation.  Then everything became real.

Up until now it's still been easy to think in the abstract.  Not anymore.  At some point tomorrow she will be on the outside and that is still sinking in.  We've been waiting for her for what feels like forever but at the same time the whole third trimester just flew by.  It's bittersweet.  I'll miss her hiccups and feeling her move.  For the most part she was always considerate and didn't jab me or get up under my ribs.  But while I won't be able to feel her move on the inside anymore I'll get to hold her in my arms . . . so I think it's a fair trade.

I know I need to try and sleep, but I'm filled with so many emotions it's difficult.  I'm a bit nervous about induction.  It wasn't my first choice, but with the gestational diabetes we need to do what is best for her and me.  The good thing is that because I've already dilated so much, she's dropped and it's anyone's guess why my water hasn't broken yet, it shouldn't be too bad.  I'll get pitocin, but hopefully I won't need a huge dose or have it constantly.  Hopefully it will kick start my body and then things will progress from there (here's hoping!).  Aside from that I'd like to do this naturally and my doctor was very supportive of that.  Another comfort.

At this point all I can do is go and see what happens.  I have an idea in my head of what I hope will happen, but the most important thing is that she's healthy and I'm heathy at the end.  Whatever we need to do in between we'll do and it will be fine.  So here's to the morning and having a baby.

Laying in bed, baby girl is all bunched up on the left.  Last look at my bump before the morning!